Not proud

               We cooked the pig that I had brought before the battle with Ralph started. We ate and I told them what we are going to do to find Ralph. I am going to find him and kill him. I put Samneric to guard Castle Rock. I know that Ralph will come back and talk to them. Then I will make them tell me were Ralph is going. I have it all figured out and I will finally be able to defeat Ralph. I will be the leader for ever and no one can take this charge from me.

               The next day came and Roger tortured Samneric. The confessed that they gave Ralph some food and he is sleeping on a thicket. We rolled rocks bigger than the one that killed Piggy but we are still unable to get him. The thicket is harder than what I thought. I sent some of the kids on my tribe to get him put he had a stick sharpened at both ends. He will defeat every single one of them. Then I had an idea that will either make him get out of the thicket or kill him. I started a fire in the jungle for him to come out. It worked and we ran out of his hiding place but he will defeat all of my face-painted warriors. I fought against him but he was able to escape. He kept running, trying to find a place to hide. At the end the island was on fire. Ralph got to the beach where he fell down. We strolled behind him and when we got close enough we noticed that he was crying and standing was a British naval officer.

               Then my old self went back to me. I smudged the paint off my face and started crying. The officer couldn’t believe how we were behaving in such a way if we are British. I cried, knowing that I took the life of 2 innocent people and that I caused the death of others. If my parents were here, they will kill me or send me to a military school. I wasn’t raised like this but something in this island made me change. I’m not proud of that change. 

Only one more to go

               I was traveling back from a hunting trip. I had the mask that makes me feel invincible. When I was going to Castle Rock I found Ralph’s tribe in the passage. I told Ralph to go away because he has his end of the island and I have my end of the island. Ralph said that I should have never stolen Piggy’s specs and that if I needed them for cooking I could have asked and they will give them to me. I will never ask him and show that I need his help in the most minimum thing. Then Ralph said that he had the conch and that he has the authority because we choose him for leader. He said that I am a thief and that got be extremely mad. I tried to stab Ralph with my spear on the chest but he evaded it and attacked me back. We started to fight with the spears as if they were sabers. After some minutes of fighting I moved back to Castle Rock and Ralph moved to the rest of the island. We were still face to face. In that minute I felt a strong fancy to kill Ralph and finish this once and for all. Who cares, this is all a game.

               We kept threatening the other at a distance. Ralph said that first I have to give Piggy’s specs back because without them he can’t see. All my tribe giggled, knowing that we will never accept such terms. Ralph said for the hundred time that it is important to have a signal fire if we want to be rescued. He kept insulting me at a distance and my head boiled. I ordered my tribe to capture Samneric and tie them up; they did what I ordered with ease. Ralph insulted me again saying that I’m a beast. I charged at him and he charged at me. We kept fighting and Piggy started to talk. He said that he had the conch and that we have to listen to what he has to say. Roger threw stones at him to make him shut up. I was really tiered of that kid.

               Then Roger released the giant rock that will finish with Piggy and Ralph. Ralph was too fast and he escaped from the trajectory of the rock. Piggy wasn’t that lucky and the rock hit him. The rock crushed the conch in a million pieces and the rock fell down the cliff with Piggy beneath it. When the rock reached the water Piggy’s head broke and blood and other things went out. Then the white and pink foam covered the sea surface were he fell. Finally Piggy was dead; there is only one more to go. Ralph escaped but I will soon catch him. Roger and me tortured Samneric and made them join my tribe. Only one more to go. 

He will suffer

               It is the next day after the fest happened. My tribe is numerous and bigger than Ralph’s and that makes me proud. I made the members of my tribe tie up Wilfred. I started to hit him and encourage the other members to hit him. I am mad that I wasn’t able to make Ralph beg for my help. Lots of the members of my tribe asked me why but I still have no real explanation. I believe that I’m doing this because I want to. I instructed my tribe that tomorrow we will hunt again. I instructed the guards of Castle Rock to be careful because Ralph’s group may sneak in and ruin things for us. I also told my guards to be careful with the beast because it may come disguise and it probably isn’t dead. I said that to get fire to cook our meat we will steal fire from Ralph again. Maurice and Roger will come with me to do that at night.

               It was night so we attacked Ralph’s camp and destroyed some of the shelters. I grabbed Piggy’s specs and hit him. The boys that had come with me were hitting to other members of Ralph’s tribe. After the attack, we ran away. Maurice had been kicked in the nuts by one of the twins. They caused me no damage when I caused them so much. I had with me the only thing that gave Ralph a reason to live. Without the glasses he will never be able to complete his goal- get rescued. He will suffer.  

Ashamed

               I and my tribe were cooking the pig. We had gotten coconut shells and but water and juices from fruits in them. The place was ready for the celebration. Slowly kids stared to come and eat. They will dance, talk, and eat. I waited for the most important guest to come. I wanted Ralph to finally come and eat from my food and decide to join my tribe. I want him to be ashamed and eat what my tribe ate. I had a hunger for him to join my tribe and prove my superiority. After much time, Piggy and Ralph showed up. I told one of my boys to give meat to Ralph and Piggy. He gave one of the best meats for them to depend on me. I felt so strong. I felt superior making my enemies have to come to me for food. I asked every one if they ate. I made sure that everyone ate as much as they wanted. Then I started my campaign. I asked who will join my tribe and said that the members of my tribe will get meat, protection, will have fun, and will learn how to hunt. Ralph pathetically said that no one should join my tribe because we were going to work together and he was the chief. He then said the remark that brought him to his doom. He said that it was pathetic how everyone ran to my tribe for food. I said that he ran for food himself. He was completely ashamed. I wanted to make him feel as burring himself in the ground- I was able to complete that. Slowly boys said that they were joining my tribe.

               Then I started our hunting ritual. Roger became the pig and all the boys circled around him and pretended to stab him with the spears. We continued to sing as the circle kept moving. Roger stood up and became a hunter. The circle continued as thunder filled the sky. We kept the circle and we chanted. Lots of littluns had started their own separate circles. Then a beast similar to the one that I saw in the top of the mountain, descended on us. Scared, we circled it and started to stab it with our spears the sand became bloody and we stopped. After that we left and the sea washed off the body of the beast.

He will see

               It was the morning of the next day. The news of our discovery had circulated the whole island and the kids were frightened of the beast attacking up. That morning I had the courage to do something that I always wanted to do. Finally I could do what I have always wanted to do, and probably be successful. I grabbed the conch and blew it the best I could. The boys gathered to know why we’re having a meeting. Ralph tried to take the power away of me and said that he was going to call a meeting anyways. I recapped the situation of the beast being real and that it is living on the top of the mountain. Then I said that my hunter weren’t able to kill the best and that Ralph thought that my hunters were not good (I know he never said that but the other kids will believe me). I kept saying false things about him that made him look bad in front of the group. When I had sabotaged Ralph enough, I called a vote on who thinks that Ralph should stop being the leader. I was confident that all the hunters will raise their hands and also most of the kids.

               No one raised their hands. I was surprise, I was sure that I would win. How could this be happening; how could this be happening to me? I placed the stupid conch in the grass and tears came from my eyes. I wanted the beast to come that second and eat me. I told Ralph that I didn’t want to play with him anymore. I said that I was going off by myself and that anyone that wants to hunt can come with me when I go hunting. Then I ran with all my strength out of the torture of their eyes. I went to the place that looked as a fort, Castle Rock.

               Some time had passed since I did the ridicule in front of everyone. I was standing in front of a small group of boys that had decided to come with me and be members of my tribe. I was happy, now I was the leader and no one could take that away. I said that we are going to forget about the best and will go hunting. I also said that we are going to have a feast and we will also invite everyone who is in Ralph’s group. After that we went to the forest to hunt.

               Beneath a tree was a fat sow that had were piglets laying next to her. She was an easy kill in that moment. We formed a circle and threw our spears at the sow. The sow left her piglets and ran for her life. We followed her and stabbed her with our spears whenever we could. At the end she fell and I stabbed her. Roger grabbed the butt of his spear and introduced it into the butt of the sow. She screamed with all her strength but then I sliced her throat. That feeling of invincibility was still living on me even thought the pig was already dead. I grabbed the head and cut it off the body. I asked someone to get me a spear sharpened at both ends and I stabbed the head in one end and then introduced the other end in the ground. I stepped back to see my art work and it was beautiful. I told my tribe that it is a tribute to the beast. After that we grabbed the sow and ran back to Castle Rock. I am going to show Ralph that we are prospering without him. He will see. 

Horrible Beast

We were still going down the mountain when I found some fresh pi droppings. Ralph looked with disgust as I got closer and smelled them. A small that used to be so disgusting had become my best friend. If there were fresh pig droppings there was a pig and if there were pigs there was fun. I asked Ralph is we could hunt the pig because he are still going to need meat even thought we hunt the beast. Ralph said that if that meant going the right direction it is okay. I walked in front of Ralph and felt him behind, in hunting I am the leader. I got close to a bush and there was a boar eating. It had a big trunk that could represent a problem. The boar saw that I was close and charged at me. I was going to stab him with my spear but he was too fast. His great tusk hit me in the arm and cut thru my flesh. The pain was enormous. The boar kept running and then I heard a spear flying in the air. The next sound was of the boar wimping and his heavy steps getting away of us. I walked to be the sound came from and Ralph was standing there. He didn’t have his spear anymore and he started to talk about how good he was hunting and that he was able to hit the boar in the snout. I laughed in my head because he said that I was insane with the hunt and that it is not important but now he was captured in the wish to hunt. He was proud and kept saying it again and again. We started our hunting ceremony and did a small circle. In the middle was the boar that in this case was Robert, one of my hunters. We started to act as if we were attacking him. We sang our chant and acted as if we were stabbing him with the spears. Then I hit Robert in the back with the end if the spear. I felt as grabbing his neck and suffocating him. Something made me stop.

               The acting finished and we said that the next time it will be more fun if there was a real pig in the middle of the circle. We talked about someone or something that at the end of the ritual can be killed. I proposed to use a littlun. They are as pigs, they don’t do anything to help and are another mouth to feed and take care. They are the same thing as pigs, worthless. If I just could have killed the kid that started the tale of the beast.

               Ralph ruined the fun when he stood up and said that we have to keep going. He said that we have to go to the mountain. Some boys proposed to go back to the platform, sleep and go to the mountain in the morning. Ralph didn’t want to do that and he said that we have to start the fire. I told him that without Piggy’s specs we can’t start the fire. Ralph said that then we should find out if the mountain is clear. It seemed as if he really wanted to go to the mountain. Maurice asked what will happen if the beast is on the mountain. I answered saying that we will kill it. As I will do to anything that defies me. I led the group to the mountain again and Ralph was being me. Simon left the group to go and tell Piggy that we are fine and that we will be back in the platform at dark. Ralph then started to say that it will be a good idea if we waited till the morning to go to the mountain because we said that it will be hard to walk in the dark.

               As we got closer to the top of the mountain the boys stated to go to the platform because they were scared of the beast. Some will give weak excuses and others only said that they were sacred. Ralph, Roger, and I were the only ones that kept going. At the end I was the first to get to the top of the mountain because I wanted to show Ralph that I wasn’t scared of something that he was. When the three of us got to the peak we saw a boulder-like thing. I don’t remember it being there. It was a weird looking ape that had his head in his knees. The head lifted and all of us ran scared. The beast is real. 

The Ideal Fort

Today I woke up early- which are something that I don’t do since I got here. Ralph woke us all at noon when the sun had just started to be seen in the horizon. He blew the conch and stared a meeting. Next to him was Samneric. Eric had striped scars in his face. The claim that they saw the beast in the mountain and that it was furry and scary. Eric was scratched by the beast that was following him. This time Ralph didn’t try to explain that the beast doesn’t exist, this time even he was scared. So was I. Now I can see that it is possible that there is a beast because this time a bigun was the one that saw it. In addition Eric had marks in his face that showed that he was attacked by a beast with claws. I went back to my senses and said that I and my hunters will kill it. A beast is nothing for me, also I will show my superiority when I come back to the platform with the head of the beast in my hands. Ralph said that with the weapons we had we didn’t stand a chance. I asked him if he was scared and he confessed that he is frightened and that everyone is. We decided that we are going to explore the island and hunt the beast for once and for all. Ralph Left Piggy in charge if the littluns as the biguns went in the expedition. Piggy started to complain that there is no one to protect the littluns if we all leave. I interrupted and he said that he has the conch. I was angry and told him what I thought. I feel that the conch is not needed. Why do people that are not important have the right of voting? I said that only some people are to have the right to a vote and because when others talk they do no good. Ralph asked me if there is somewhere that I still haven’t gone in the entire island. I answered and we decided that we will look for the beast there and then go to the mountain, see if the beast is there, and light the fire.

               We walked to the place where I have never been before. The place can a bridge made by stones. I had only seen that place at a distance when I hunted. When we go very close I told Ralph that we are in sight and that we need to be careful. We were all hiding behind tall grasses- were no beast could see us. Ralph said that he was going to go first because he is the chief and not to argue with him. I say him as he got out of the grasses and in to the area. I followed him without him knowing, I will not let him take my job. The place was only rocks and no beast lived there. He walked to the tall grasses and told the boys that it was all right and that there is no beast here. The place has a half cave surrounded by rocks. I was excited; this could be an excellent fort. In this spot no one will be able to conquer us. I could take control of the tribe now if I wanted to or get the hunters to do a tribe here. If someone got close I could roll stones down and smash them. It was a place of advantage. I told Ralph about how good is this place and how it can be an excellent fort. He kept saying that it was a rotten place and that he will never move the group from the platform to this spot. The other boys studied the possibilities of that place as a fort. Ralph said that we have to go to the top of the mountain to turn on the signal fire because a ship may pass by and not notice us. I and the other boys wanted to stay in this place but Ralph obligated us to go to the mountain. At the end Ralph told me to lead the group to the mountain. For one of the first times Ralph did a smart decision. Since the start I should have led the group. 

What is what

Today I was a fun day until Ralph ruined it. I was in the beach swimming with other boys. Each one was where they wanted to be. Ralph called a meeting which he said was a “serious” meeting because we have to but very clear what is what. He talked about the rules and that we have to follow them. He also added other rules because he said that problems have come in the way of our lives in the island. He said that I can’t do any more cooking fires and that we have to do them in the same signal fire. That is unfair because know me and my hunters will have to travel a greater distance because know we have to go up the mountain. He also said that the rocks were going to be the bathroom but he kids are going to the bathroom wherever they want. I support him in that because I don’t like the smell of the droppings of the kids. He told us that we have to keep the fire going if we want to see our parents and friends again.

               The Ralph moved to the topic of the possible existence of a beast in the island. He said that it was pure fear talk and that it was false. He said that the legend of the beast is only littluns talk and that it is fake- there is nothing to be scared of. I said that this is the littluns fault that the fear about the beast started. I also said that the beast is only a nightmare and that they have to control the fear because they will he have to support that fear for all their lives. We all started to dispute about the existence of the beast. A littlun fueled that fire when they said that they had seen the beast and that it was scary. Another one added that the beast lives in the water and comes to the island whenever it wants. Ralph got mad when some biguns said that it was possible that a beast exists. At the end we talked about what we wished and about how adults will behave if they were in this situation. At the end Ralph said that he will love if we got a sign from the adult world of what to do. I will also hope that. 

The Pig Killer

Today I was finally able to achieve what I have wanted to complete for so much time. I have continuously gone to the forest to hunt but it seems as if the pigs know in advance that I’m going to attack them. Today I discovered the solution to all my problems, about hunting. I went to the forest and collected thinks that worked as ink. With some white clay I have white inks and with red clay I have red. I had also collected a stick if charcoal from the fire. I called Roger, San, Eric, and Bill to gather. I explained to them that with the clay in my face they will not be able to smell me nor see me. I drew in may face with the materials I had, but it could be better. Again, I drew on my face with the materials I had. I looked at my reflection with water in a coconut and was pleased. I looked as a real worrier, as in wars with dazzle paint.

               For some unknown reason I felt better under that mask of paint. I felt stronger and without fear of anything. All the feelings that made me weak had vanished and the only thing left was my wish to kill. I wanted to grab one of the spears and stab it into a pig. I will never end up in ridicule because I didn’t kill a pig. The boys around me looked at me with eyes of fear and respect. They were scared of me and I loved that feeling. With this mask nothing could stop me. Not Piggy, not the beast, and certainly not Ralph.

               With my group of hunters and Samneric, we traveled to the forest were pigs inhabited. We found a pig run with recent droppings. Hidden inside a circle of bushes was a sow. Using hand sign I instructed my hunters to make a circle and slowly close in. I felt adrenalin and strength. I didn’t want to wait- I just wanted to kill that sow. The sow discovered that she was circled and started to run around- not able to find a escape route. I was done waiting. My feet passed in front of the sow and she was frozen with the fear of me getting closer. I jumped with all the strength in my legs and position my spear diagonally looking down. When my body went back to earth the spear had penetrated from one side of the sow to the other. The spear caused a small hole in the ground. It felt so good, to terminate with the life of the sow because I want to. If I could just do this for the rest of my life.

               When we arrived back to the platform Samneric were carrying the sow. We were singing a chant that made me feel happy. It was fun. Kill the pig. Cut her throat. Spill her blood. Ralph greeted us with a face of anger. I tried to tell him about our adventure and the achievement I had completed. Instead he interrupted me to say that I had let the fire go off. He told me that a ship passed in front of the island when I was hunting. He said that they would have rescued us if they had seen the fire. I just tried to tell him what I have done. Who cares about being rescued if we can have fun and hunt? It was annoying me that they didn’t care that I had gotten meat for us to eat. Then the fatso of Piggy started to scowl at me too for letting the fire go off. I am more superior than him and he should had never talked to me like that. How does he get a right to scowl me for letting the fire off if he doesn’t even help the group? He is only another mouth to feed; he is as the littluns. I was angry and he had to learn a lesson so I punched him. I hit him in the stomach and after he was in the floor I hit him in the face. I broke one of the glasses in his specs. Who cares if there is only one glass? I only need one to be able to cook my meat. After that nothing important happened other than we cooked the meat and everyone ate. I was proud that they needed my help to get food. They depend on me. 

Just my Imagination

Part three

               Some weeks have passed since the last time I wrote. Today I was so close to complete my dream. My hair was longer compared to the length of it when I got to this place. Today I found a pig run and some fresh droppings. I wanted to kill a pig so bad that I could taste it. I will not be laugh at again. I will show Ralph that I am a hunter and that I and my group can sustain the island with meat. I had a spear in my hand and walked as quiet as ever. Then the sound of the feet of a pig’s feet hitting against the ground invaded the forest. I prepared my spear to throw it at the big but by the time I was ready the pig was already a long distance away.

               I went to the platform, which is the spot where our group lives. I found Simon and Ralph standing in front of the shelters. I asked for water and Ralph told me were the coconut shells with water were. After I drank the water, Ralph scowled at me about the fact that no one helps making the shelters. He said that my hunters are the biggest and the strongest and that they will help make the shelters. I told him that when we decided how things were going to be done, we decided that the hunters will do what I want instead of what he wants. He said also that the littluns- the small kids- are always proposing the idea of building items that are illogical. He also said that I sent my hunters to have fun and that they should be hunting or helping on the shelters if they are not hunting. It is unfair that now he even wants to take control of my hunters and event tells me that when I’m doing isn’t helping. Who does he think he is? I should be telling him what to do in the first place.

               Then Ralph said something half smart. He said that it is important that we do shelters because in the night the littluns get scared because they thing that there is a beast out in the island. Most likely the kids will fill safer if they are sleeping on shelters instead of in the grass- being an easy prey. What before was stupid for me and for Ralph, had grown to be a bigger problem. If the beast exists or doesn’t exist isn’t the problem. The problem is that the kids are sacred. Even when I hunt I feel that there is something behind me, trying to hunt me. I hope it is just in my imagination. 

Alone... maybe

               Some hours have pass since I was in the platform with the group of kids. Ralph, Simon, and I have just got back from the top of the mountain of the island. Yes, it’s an island. We got up there and we saw no houses and the place is completely surrounded by water. We are really trapped in a deserted island. When we got in the platform Ralph blew on the hideous conch that had given him the power. Next to him was his fat friend, Piggy. When the boys gathered around him he started talking. He told them that it is a deserted island and that there are pigs to hunt. I said that they will need me and my hunters to hunt pigs to have meat. Maybe if I had the army… hunters in my side I could later defeat Ralph.

               Ralph kept talking about the importance of doing rules to keep the group in order. The rule that he did was that from now on you will have to have the conch to be able to talk in assemblies. Ralph is the only one that gets to break that rule. I was exited of the fact that there are going to be rules because like that we will have an excellent life in this island until they come and rescue us. Then a small boy started to cry. He mumbled something, so low that no one could listen. Ralph tried to make him talk but the boy will not talk. Piggy finally was able to get the boy to tell him what happened and then he will tell that to us in a higher voice. The boy said that there is a horrible beast. All of the other boys were quiet; they believed what he was saying. I know that beasts don’t exist, so I wasn’t scared. Ralph wasn’t able to get the kids back in order or feeling safe. What he said only mode it move evident that there may be a real danger in this place. Again I showed my superiority as a leader. I told the kids that if there is a beast- which I knew wasn’t true- me and my hunters will kill it.

               After that all the kids traveled to the top of the mountain to start a fire. We are going to do smoke signals because if a boat passes by, they will notice that there are people in the island and will save us. All of the kids carried a load of wood and placed all of it together in a pile. Ralph attempted to carry an enormous trunk but wasn’t able to carry it. I helped him and together we were able to get the biggest chunk of wood in the pile. Maybe if we worked together we could be invincible, no, I am to be the leader and I could do all of this alone. After it was all ready we came with the question of: how are we going to turn on the fire? After some time I thought that we could use Piggy’s specs to turn on some of the dry leafs and then it will expand to the rest of the bonfire. Suddenly the fire went out of control and started to turn the mountain on fire. Some trees became red instead of green. It took some time for the fire to burn the objects before it went back to a controllable size. When the fire was perfect Piggy started to annoy me and the others about the importance of doing shelters. We are in a deserted island without any adult, we ought to have fun.

               Later Piggy said that the boy that had said they there is a beast in the island had gone missing. I was scared of the fact that there could be a beast. The only one that had seen it disappeared in no time. Maybe a beast does live in this island. Maybe it will kill us all if we don’t kill it soon. There is still nothing to worry about because the boy probably died in the fire. There is not enough evidence for me to be really scared. I just hope that we are alone in this place.

The Unknown place

            I just landed in a deserted island that I have never heard of. My parents sent me in a plane trip to a safe place. I don’t know where that safe place is, but I’m sure it is not here. Because of the World War II I had to be sent away of my house. Me, a group of friends from my choir, and a group of boys that I had never meet, were in a plane ride. Out plane ride was suddenly interrupted when a giant ball of flames covered a wing of the plane. The plane had been shot down.

            I woke up in a big beach which I have never been before. Around me were other members of my choir- I was the head boy. They all looked at me for orders, I was still their leader. I was born a leader and it doesn’t surprise me that even in this situation they asked me to be their leader. After some time I heard a sound similar to the one of a trumpet from the choir, only that this one had a bass sound. I and my group went to the place where the sound came from and found a boy of about the same age as me. He had fair, black hair and in his hand had a deep cream shell. More boys that I have never met were around him and a small fat boy was asking their names and memorizing them.

            We talked and tried to bring the pieces together to know what had happened. Apparently there are no adults and probably our parents and the people back home don’t know we are trapped in this unknown place. We are probably going to be stuck in this place and we will have to survive until someone comes and rescue us.  We made a vote to decide who is going to be the leader of the group. I nominated myself to be the leader. I am the only one fit in all this group of kids to lead. I will make sure that everyone does his part and will make the settlement prosper. The kid that had the shell- which he calls conch-, Ralph, nominated himself to be the leader. I was sure that I will win the vote but something unexpected happened. The kids said that the one with the conch should be the leader. The members of my choir voted for me but they weren’t enough. Probably the only reason they choose that kid instead of me as a leader was because he had the conch and he was the one that had gathered us together. I am smarter, stronger, and better than Ralph in any way you see it. I know that sooner or later he will fail and all the boys will want me as a leader. Even if I have to make it happen.

            Ralph, Simon, and I were descending from the top of the tallest mountain in the entire place. We carried important news for the rest of the kids in the group. As we walked down, we encountered a pig that was trapped in creepers. Prior to this I had said that I and my choir were going to be the hunters of the group. Ralph stared at me, waiting for me to show him that I’m a hunter. I retrieved my knife but I couldn’t kill the pig. I just couldn’t. The pig escaped and so did my honor. I promised to them and to myself that the next time I will kill a pig.